His Shirt Pocket

by Sarah McNamara

I stared at his shirt pocket filled with pens and folded pieces of paper. He looked from me to his pocket and back to me. He smiled and pushed air through his teeth—a laugh, a sigh, maybe both. I could tell you if I looked into his eyes. Everything he doesn’t say is written in his eyes. I wonder why people carry around more than one pen. I’d like to shrink to the size of one and sit in his shirt pocket. He’d chat with me all day. He likes to talk, he’s good at it. Sometimes we just look at each other—our eyes ordinary, our mouths closed. He’s nice to look at, like a forest of deciduous trees, no matter the season.

Instructional Guide for Handling a Crush

Barrel through the train’s cars (he’ll glide out of the way to avoid a collision). Say thank you, but don’t make eye contact (he’ll reply like he knows you). Look at him in disbelief. Resist the urge to grab him and hug him. Say something bright and agreeable. Find an empty seat. Anticipate his face every afternoon. Smile at his enthusiastic quips. When he disappears, anticipate his face and quips for one week (maybe two) before conceding. Invoke him every day. Stand on the trains with your head in a book. Glance at everyone who stands opposite you until he returns.

BIO

Sarah McNamara’s work can be found or is forthcoming in Ink In Thirds and 101 Words. Find her at sarahrosemcnamara.blogspot.com