(it is spring), i miss
your damp forehead
between my shoulder blades
(i can’t bear to look at the moon again); i miss
how you used to bite my earlobe
whenever i drifted away
[or whenever i picked up
books like
the hundred thousand songs of milarepa
because
poetry more beautiful than ours
gave you a headache]
(my darling), i miss
your firm grasp
on my hips
(i’ve been sleeping on your side); i miss
how your eyes
used to soften
when i sang
ballads to the cosmos,
wearing your duvet as the high priestesses of athena
would have worn their robes
[and when you looked at me with adoration i felt like an enchantress ,,,,, dazzling, alive, fire in my belly, a daughter of the seas ,,,,,, and i conjured all the elements in the texture of our lips]
(i’m sorry i promised to visit but i didn’t) i miss
curling up to you
sweaty hearts pressed together,
your fingertips drawing
stars and suns on my back;;;
the night i left you
i laid awake
locking eyes with the night sky
through your half-opened window,
i was cold and
i wiped my tears on your pillow case.
at one-point i could have sworn
the sky slipped into your chamber
and laid in bed with us
and i thought
etcetera.
kiss me
i’m peaking
you murmur
lips pressed
against
my
forehead
i look up
to you
your eyeballs
are shaking
your hair
is
damp
and
you look
so
beautiful
i feel
my eyes
rolling to
the back
of
my head
as i crash
my mouth
to yours
my hands
fall
on your
chest
and
i feel
your warmth
slip
through
my skin
wrapping
my heart
your hands
rest on
my waist
your beard
scratches
my ear
and i feel
tangled
with you
my mouth
is
dry
and
the
music
is
tearing
my
chest
open
i
feel
dizzy
i bring
your
hands
to
my
heart
do
you
feel this
your voice
is hoarse
you
are
holding
my
youth
between
your
fingertips
i nod
is it
love
i
don’t
know
but
i
feel
so
close
to you
right
now
sonnet sorrow
brief to
I
am
digesting
my
loss
as
life
dances
on
the
tip
of
my
tongue
BIO
Téa Nicolae is a Romanian poetess based in the UK. She writes confessional, Occult and devotional poetry. She was short-listed for the Literary Lancashire Award 2019 and her poems have been published in several print and online publications, including Cake Magazine, TAST Zine, Dissolved Magazine and SCAN. She is an editor at Flash Journal Lancaster and she studied Film and Creative Writing at Lancaster University.
