Why Don’t You?
by Kevin R. Farrell, Jr.
Skipping rocks across the river between your ears,
I’ll fake my way through impermanence,
a slave to boredom,
scar tissue tickle spots,
I’m frightened my rage will come out of retirement,
a comeback tour of only the classic fuck ups,
a graveyard of mass apologies,
an answering machine of only what the fucks?
chokes me like,
cool beans, asshole,
I sprint through the crawl spaces of my mind,
someone should tell the rats about marathons.
what’s it look like
to look like
you’re not looking?
Toe the line,
self-service check out body bags,
all of our wounds internal,
putting cigarettes out on my past,
give yourself a hand,
I don’t need it,
I’ve destroyed myself so you can’t,
built myself back up so you couldn’t.
Rise and Spit Shine
politically active contraceptives,
dictating to the choir,
to raise the bar,
lower your standards,
licking your novice chops,
meetings are murder,
furrowed brow beaten but not out,
hard pressed to remain soft spoken,
sulking your way to the top,
cower in humble defeat,
you’re so lovingly receptive,
I’ll walk all over you,
Never Slept On It
My OCD sees only the unkempt,
trimmed my beard with a mouse trap,
ego maniac with an inferiority complex narcissistically mirror gazing,
I’m having rage issues,
I have no control when it comes to not having control,
I’m a free spirit grounded on the tarmac,
my heart is heavy,
you press your name into it,
when it dries we’ll get a frame,
hang it in the hallway of my childhood home,
cover the hole I sucker punched in the wall,
right next to the other hole I sucker punched in the wall,
the new tenants walk on eggshells
to not disturb my ghost writer,
last night I fought a coworker in my dreams because he refused my help,
when I see him today
he’s getting the cold shoulder,
that’ll show him who’s not even the boss of his own mind,
my alarm clock rolls its fives.
Melancholic whoa is me tea parties,
the flesh of, the blood of,
the conversation hasn’t changed,
a long lineage of talking heads,
a sense of triviality,
we should talk less,
count all the frowns
to divide them by the smiles,
you haven’t heard a thing,
no need to be saved when you can run away,
and before I forget,
the lawn looks great.
Kevin R. Farrell, Jr. is a New York based artist, poet, and educator whose work has been published in Burning House Press, Rumble Fish Quarterly, Adroit Journal, Terror House Magazine, Former People, Blakelight Magazine, Visitant Lit, Ink in Thirds Magazine, Indiana Voice Journal, Foxhole Magazine, Yo-NEWYORK!, BONED Stories, Yes, Poetry, and The Writing Disorder. His work attempts to capture life from the vantage point of someone in the backseat of a stolen car running on fumes. His poems are a play on words in the form of political, satirical, surrealist, tongue in cheek rants that often border on stream of consciousness ramblings that are a last-ditch effort at taking it all in before we get taken out.